let me fucking tell u a lil something something about the day of silence
when i was in 9th grade i joined my school’s gsa and found out that gay straight alliances dont really do anything at all
it was pretty much just an hour after school where obnoxious gay boys and self righteous straight girls making posters and shit that would eventually be torn down and vandalised the day after they were hung up
so heres a brief summary of my first day of silence:
in french class my teacher called on me repeatedly and mocked me every single time i didnt verbally answer until i couldnt stand it anymore and had to answer her
throughout the day kids made fun of me and mocked me and wouldnt shut the fuck up and listen when i tried to explain what it was for
other than that i was ignored
same thing in 10th grade
mocked ridiculed and overall ignored
and the same in 11th grade
and this year i finally fucking realised
im angry
im pissed
and its time to get really fucking loud
today this self righteous ally in my public affairs class went up to the board and wrote: “if you’re not doing the day of silence youre—”
the bell rang and she erased it
but if was really bothering me all day
im what
if im not doing the day of silence im what
wrong? homophobic? a disgusting piece of human garbage?
no
i dont need a self righteous straight person telling me that i am wrong and bad and evil on a day that is supposed to support and help my type of people
i dont need people who dont know oppression and who dont know what silence is except on one fucking day in the calendar year telling me what i should and should not do
in lunch this straight kid at my lunch table had a white board and i told him that what he is doing is 5000000% useless and it made me angry
do you know what he told me
“stop being so cynical”
yes
stop being cynical
stop being cynical and mad and angry when i am the only one at this lunch table with the right to be so
stop being cynical when i have done this for four years and not a single thing has changed and this is doing absolutely nothing to help me at all
im going to be cynical and im going to be mad and im going to be angry and im going to be loud but im not going to be SILENT
what good has silence done me
what good does silence do me when my straight friends talk about their new boyfriends when ive had a girlfriend for months and i can n e v e r talk about her because my poor poor straight friends might be uncomfortable
what good does silence do me when im on the bus and someone’s calling someone else a pussy faggot or a dyke and im too afraid to say anything because they know where i live and they are Those Kinds Of People and im afraid to even breathe near them in fear that they might physically hurt me
silence does nothing for me
do you know what being loud and angry does for me
being loud and angry when a guy in the breakroom at work started throwing around words like tr***y and he-she and i told him to fucking cut it out and not a single person who works at my store has said a single problematic thing in my presence since
being loud and angry when everyone in my women in lit class did the same thing and telling them that they should be ashamed of themselves for being so blatantly disrespectful and they shut up instantly and my teacher thanked me for doing her job for her
being loud and angry when people support rape culture and slut shaming and every single problematic thing in this universe has gotten me places
thats right
newsflash: silence gets you nowhere and being loud and angry is what actually works
silence is a tool of oppression and should not be appropriated to make a trendy social statement
silence is not the tool of my trade
im going to be loud and im going to be angry
and you are going to listen
